Just think of me & I'll be there...

This says it all

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

12/10/2005 02:06:00 PM
Truly Madly Deeply by Christine Post a Comment (3)

That's it...

I am leaving... getting away from those shits and junks work... The feeling of resigning is getting stronger & stronger. I feel dat I cant hang on any longer.. imagine I have to work frm A-Z where i juz paid for only A-B! Everyday when I go to work, always got to tell myself.. today will be a better day.. lesser pros.. lesser work.. lesser headaches.. lesser arguements.. lesser anger.. but still.. haiz.. y like this???

Receive an email frm boss today.. gg to have meeting tmw.. and of course its nothing gd! In fact, b4 this meeting, I have alreday noe some changes in work.. in a way, they said its trying to make our depts better.. learn more.. learn frm one another.. BUT.. in another way, its telling me to WORK even MORE! I have alr enuff workload now man! GIVE ME A BREAK!

Its not systematic.. its not organised.. its not united.. sometimes really dun understamd hw those ppl work.. esp with some customers! Oh my.. the quotation given since MAY till end of this yr and they have been making the same rates all these while.. suddenly said all r wrong! And juz bcos their AUDITIORS spot the rates r diff b4 APRIL! Wat the f***! Wats their rates got to do with AUDITIORS!! Customer they themselves dun even say anything lor.. making EXTRA job for me & my colleague.. my colleague suffer most when it comes to all these amendments! We got to dig out passed shipments invoices and sent correction notices to agents.. then pass to a/cs to do refund! She so fed up & angry till cry lor.. my god.. me very lost-hearted liao.. those rates were being filed as 'special rates' frm agent also can be wrong?! Then which is the correct ones? TOTAL SPEECHLESS!!!

I have never ever come across a company with such kind of working style.. such idiot & silly system (so manual!).. such 'nice' agents.. GET ME HELL OUT OF THIS STUPID PLACE!! I AM GG MAD SOON! Still, i can tahan for 8 mths with THEM!

New supervisor and sale support coming soon.. guess they might runaway when they noe hw we work! I even haf to teach them man.. I cant be dat bad to throw junks & craps to them when I leave.. I shall see who else after me & my colleagues left can tahan!! I will take my hat off dat person!!! Worship like GOD!

Pray for me... wish for me.. dat I can find a better job offer outside. All the best of luck to myself!

12/08/2005 07:39:00 PM
Truly Madly Deeply by Christine Post a Comment (3)

Here I am...

Wow.. its been 2 mths since my last blog.. getting more & more lazy.. ;p If i am gg to recap for these past 2 mths happenings.. guess it will be a super long essay.. so, juz make simple & short!

Its the last mth of 2005.. Xmas is getting nearer... so does my yr end BONUS!! Been waiting so long man.. tolerating all the craps & shits frm work.. was thinking whether to quit after my bonus but increment on JAN.. I am gg to miss it if i leave.. but if i dun leave, hw much longer can i endure?? Urgh.. dun wan to say so much abt work.. lost-hearted

Spend quite alot this few mths.. busy busy.. no $$$$... hoping to go holiday early next yr.. most ppl have been gg except me.. sob sob..

12/07/2005 09:54:00 PM
Truly Madly Deeply by Christine Post a Comment (3)