Just think of me & I'll be there...

Time to say goodbye?

Have been mentally & physcially tired for abt 2 mths plus.. which means ever since I have started work. Wats wrong? Wat happen? YES! Damn stress over work! All those stupid & silly pros, unreasonable customers, no unity among colleagues, tons of requirements by principal office... wat more to come??? Damn... Y do i haf to work so hard when no1 appreciate my work & effort? Y do i haf to work when i am under paid for the amt of work assigned to me? Y do i haf to work when i got to RESPECT & AFRAID of those shit customers? Y do i haf to work when other ppl r dat 'busy' playing internet and chit-chatting when i am slogging like hell? Y do i haf to do when its NOT even my duties? Any1 can tell me???

The thought of leaving hasnt been erased even since I joined this co.. I have been telling myself to hang on.. preserve.. part of it also bcos i haf build up a relations with some colleagues there.. & thinking dat 1 day THEY will appreciate my work & do something to help me to reduce my workload... WISHFUL THINKING! Imagine a co without a mangement dept, IT dept, Admin dept, HR dept.. dun noe wat co is this??? They like to assign 1 person to do everything! Inhouse system is sooooo damn stupid & troublesome! Juz 1 word... SUCKS! Cant stay any longer there...

They got to change the title of my post.. Bao ka liao!!! If I am absent from work... DIE! Everything crooked up! My hp will start ringing like nobody business.. email flood like hell.. oh god! SAVE ME! Getting to fall sick and dun even dare to take mc.. cos when i am back to work... worst! Tons of work for me to do! Indeed some1 is helping me now... but.. not much help! I still haf to oversee the whole of those work.. ppl will still coming after me when there's any mistakes. any missing info..

Cant imagine.. somemore I haf diving classes to attend next mth... obviously I am NOT gg to absent myself for the classes bcos of WORK! Now.. i haf talked to my agency.. she is gg to look out out other job vacancies.. hopefully to haf some gd news SOON!

神啊救救我吧!

6/28/2005 09:00:00 PM
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All the .....ings!

Went to book for the diving course with fren last fri which starts on July with a total of 8 persons. Hopefully i can attend all the theory & pool classes as it held in the evening till nite frm mon-thur... Got to rush for classes after work alr.. Looking forward for the tioman trip after the classes which is actually required to attend b4 we can pass the test & get the cert. After which, can orgainse to go 4 diving trips with frenz.. cool man!

July is my diving mth, Aug is either learning for yacht or driving.. followed by cycling trips.. canoeing.. all outdoor activities! yeah! Hmmm.. dun noe when I have become so active in all these.. Guess age is catching up.. better to learn as much as i can b4 its too late.. ahhaaaa...

Was saying that got to cut down on clubbing.. well... its coming up again for me.. had been gg almost every week.. oh man... hopefully can replace clubbing with all my outdoor activities

Cant wait to go for my diving now! My only motivation at the moment!

6/27/2005 10:30:00 PM
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别问我的伤

别看我的脸
它已变了样
别碰我的手
它已冰冷
感觉不到力量
爱过的人竟变得如此陌生
这样的缘份非死即伤
就让回忆留着完美形象
现在你何苦抓住不放
别问我的伤
它才刚刚睡着
你的爱像烈日
像狂风像利刃割在心上
有一滴血流在地上
别问我的伤
它要慢慢疗伤
你的爱像轻烟
像流星像迷雾飘在心上
在解脱之前
做梦都会怕你给我的伤
又深又长
看不见一点光亮甜蜜的吻
碎成千片在风中
对我狂笑
你给我的伤又苦又烫
吞不下也忘不掉多馀的泪
风干枯萎
再回头
我受不了

6/12/2005 08:44:00 PM
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Tired... Stressed out. Need some LIFE!

Its been sometime since I have updated my blog.. been lazy to update as well.. Its almost 2 mths since I have started work. Time really flies.. its alr JUNE! Half a yr is almost gone.. start to realise I have wasted quite alot of time. There's alot of things I wanted to do.. to learn.. Work has been taking up most of my time during all these while. Had the thoughts of leaving sometime ago.. was really fed up & stressed over work. Lots of requirements, & demands from my PRINCIPAL office! Those work also got alot of pros! Want me to settle EVERYTHING at once.. As though i am a super & wonder woman! Really out of breathe! Was thinking to myself, is this WAT I actually want to haf & get at work... gd pay? benefits? nice enviroment? nice colleagues & boss? wat else??? Goodness... cant really find my ownself recently.. as though my soul has left my nut body shell! Tired tired tired.. even to an extend dat my whole of right hand pain... cant stretch my hand out, cant use too much force.. sometimes can even bcum NUMB.. OMG

But.. when I think in 'another' way... still dun wish to quit... Cos I am starting to build up the relations with my colleagues, with customers.. 1 thing dat I really realise is dat I can REALLY control my temper compared to the past when working in my ex-co. Guess I have being 'trained up'. And juz only recently.. dat I do go out with colleagues to have lunch together. Somehow was being 'dragged' out by them. As they said I should get some 'sun tanning'.. always cropped in office will get OLD fast! True.. its better for me to get some fresh air after a hard & tiring morning everyday.. BUT... aiyoh.. the whole of raffles place was so packed ESPECIALLY during lunch time.. It is really a BUSY & FAMOUS office spot.

Planning to do some outdoor activites & CUT down on clubbing.. YES! U ppl didnt hear nme wrong! Dun assume & presume I am a chongster... Its time to start healthy lifestyle.. it may seems to be alittle late.. but better than nothing rite?

Alright.. shall stop for here now. Its time for me to go to bed now.. tmw another working day.. dats MY weekend..

6/11/2005 12:13:00 AM
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